Lord, Increase my faith

Lord, Increase my faith

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More than once I have hit the rock bottom. More than once I have wanted to give up. More than once I have contemplated giving up my faith and backsliding. More than once I have heard the enemy mock me and call me a failure and good for nothing. More than once I have heard him, loud and clear, telling me that I can never amount to anything, and in most of all these times, I have agreed with him. I have looked at the facts and the situations that surround me and wondered if my life will ever amount to anything. Life has been challenging to say the least. To me, it has become a mystery. There are times darkness seems to be the only companion I have and to be honest, I have found myself more confused and stuck in a rut.

In the midst of all this I have tried not to question God, but sometimes I have. It’s a promise that’s hard to keep especially when you have been fasting and praying without any answer. There was a time I just told Him that I have been defeated. But He made me understand that I am relying so much on my own strength and capabilities than I am relying on Him. Another time I told Him that I have failed. But He asked, “who have you been talking to?” I realised I had been talking to the enemy. I was really discouraged at that time and all I could hear were voices of condemnation, discouragements and mockery. Though I knew it was the enemy, somehow I was agreeing with what he was telling me.

But when I changed my focus to God, somehow things began to take shape. One of the things I ran to in the Bible as I went through it was in the book of Psalms which says;

I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt. Open your mouth, and I will feed you. Psalm 81:10

Through this scripture I realised that God didn’t not bring me this far to leave me or even to make me suffer. He saved me for a purpose, and He did it for my own good too. And if I am going through some challenges, the only thing I need to do is to rely on Him and let Him take care of me. As I was meditating on this one, I remembered another verse in the book of Isaiah 41:8-10 which says;

“But you, Israel my servant, you are the people that I have chosen, the descendants of Abraham, my friend. I brought you from the ends of the earth; I called you from its farthest corners and said to you, ‘You are my servant.’ I did not reject you, but chose you. Do not be afraid—I am with you! I am your God—let nothing terrify you! I will make you strong and help you; I will protect you and save you. Isaiah 41:8‭-‬10

I knew that God was speaking to me and helping me understand that my calling was not by coincidence, neither was it by chance. He knew what He was doing when He called me and no matter what comes my way, He has my back. This is the confidence I have, though at this point I can be justified to cry out like the disciples of old, “Lord, Increase my faith”.

About Ashlly Ruth

A woman on the move. A child of God. Christ's representative on earth. Author. Blogger. Visit her website for more info.

Comments

  1. I love how you have shared your heart. I, too, sometimes complain to God about what He wants from me, and I get a similar answer: Who have you been talking to?”

  2. I also have faced these doubts about my life, Ashley. Am I doing what God truly wants me to do? Am I serving the way He intends for me? These are weighty questions, especially when I feel that my time is often taken up with things that I don’t believe are fulfilling His purpose – and then again, maybe they are!

    Thank you so much for sharing.

  3. I needed this today, Ashley. Yesterday was one of those days when I was listening to the wrong voice. Thanks for the jolt of truth!

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