Am I Fearful or Am I Trusting?

Am I Fearful or Am I Trusting?

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I’m not struggling with fear. I wouldn’t call it that. It’s more of an uncertainty about the future. I’m not really sure where things are headed. When you come right down to it, maybe I’m not trusting God.

There’s an adventure I’m embarking on. I’ve made a commitment of time, effort and money that I’m not sure will pan out the way I hope. I prayed about it, and discussed it with my husband. God seemed to be confirming the decision. But I don’t know what the results will be.

And isn’t that common in every situation in life?

We don’t know if our children will grow up to follow Christ; or be healthy and happy. But we put in our best effort to raise them well and trust God. We can’t tell if the new job will be better than the old one, but we work hard and trust God. An exciting ministry idea sounds great, but we never know if it will be successful or not. We pray and work and trust God.when I am afraid Psalm 56:3

A few years ago a friend felt the tug in her heart to begin a prison ministry in our state. She had visited other states and seen a wonderful gospel-based program where lives were being changed. Her desire was to see it here, but how? You need to go through miles of Department of Corrections red tape and have the right contacts, and she had been told the process often takes years. And sometimes the requests are just flat out denied. But we prayed and asked God to grant favor.

He answered in miraculous ways! Only a few short months later, our church had a team going regularly into a women’s prison and conducting a Bible study called Hannah’s Gift (by Dr. Kristi Miller, published by Awana Lifeline). We have seen God bless and work and give us even more opportunities there. Women are being set free even while still incarcerated.

But we didn’t know if God would answer and bless or not. There are no guarantees our prayers will be answered or God will move in the ways we wish.

I don’t know what the future holds for me and my endeavors. But I need to be okay with that and trust God. He is good, He is faithful, and He has good plans for me and for you.

And in the meantime, I can’t be paralyzed by uncertainty. I must worship well and give Him thanks and obey in the areas He’s leading me today.

A.W. Tozer said, “Sometimes when we get overwhelmed we forget how big God is.”

How big is God? He’s the beginning and end of all things, the creator of the universe and in charge of every molecule and each hair on your head. He controls the hearts of kings, raises and topples governments, and knows every thought and desire in our deepest hearts. Nothing is hidden from Him, nothing is outside of his power, and he hears and will judge every careless word that is spoken. He’s our defender, our sustainer, the one who keeps our hearts beating and our blood flowing. He is the King of kings and Lord of lords and He will reign forever and ever.

 

So why am I fearful and unwilling to trust Him completely?   I forget 😉

I have revealed and saved and proclaimed—
    I, and not some foreign god among you.
You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord,  
“that I am God.
 Yes, and from ancient days I am he.
No one can deliver out of my hand.
    When I act, who can reverse it?”
Isaiah 43:12-13

 

 

Linda Graf About Linda Graf

Linda Graf is the author of  Bitter Truth: My Story of Bitterness, Grace and Repentance. She wrote it after the Lord freed her from a lifestyle of anger and bitterness. She is a musician, a mentor and mother. Being an author was never on her radar, but during her journey from bitterness to joy in Christ, she was compelled to write about it. Check out her website where she blogs regularly.

Comments

  1. I don’t know what the future holds for me and my endeavors. But I need to be okay with that and trust God. He is good, He is faithful, and He has good plans for me and for you.

    And in the meantime, I can’t be paralyzed by uncertainty. I must worship well and give Him thanks and obey in the areas He’s leading me today.

    Linda, I love those lines and try to live by them.

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