God Must Control My Life

God Must Control My Life

2 Samuel 22:3 NIV

My God is my rock, in whom I take refuge,  my shield and the horn of my salvation. He is my stronghold, my refuge and my savior from violent people you save me.



In the last two months, I have struggled. I feel overwhelmed. God’s guidance like a surety of a stronghold that has overcome with my ability to be what I should write good or not do what God controls and directs to use me as an intercessor or problem area.


My last fifth book released on Sept 1 this year. This causes many guest posts, things to take over an event writing directs my results, the devotions that I write twice a week for my blog beside writing a devotion for a Facebook post each week, while I remember traveling ladies Bible study and other church events.


Travel totals every few days besides writing stuff and family events. We travel to my mother-in-law once a month to visit her about four hours to her house and four more back to Wichita Falls. We’re blessed that our daughter and son-in-law with two grandsons has moved to only two hours away. How nice that is! I see occasionally to visit my baby daughter and her adult granddaughter. My oldest daughter and son-in-law are from Colorado where we go to visit for at least a week in September.


It’s all wonderful.


I’m grateful.


I do worry about my husband.


Pain scares me about him.. My husband needs healing from God lately. I pray a lot.


Still, lately, my husband worries about me. He asked that I consider stopping writing, or give up things I can’t finish, or accomplish touching lives. Unfortunately, my mental and nervous breakdown has neared an ending from Christ’s job the last two months.


Ephesians 6:12

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places].



Praise God for quiet time. Most mornings I have quiet time in the morning. This weekend Saturday, I began early for the event to speak and sell my books. Then, on Sunday, my husband and I headed for our usual church service. My hubby felt sick with his problem. With my nervous shakedown, I worried about my loved one. Though I looked at God’s Word some and read some of what I needed to read over the weekend, I didn’t receive God’s touch too well. I fall from what I might accomplish each day.


Each day, I treasure quiet time. Today, I asked God my only help coming from productive time for God to overcome my ability to cope. God handles strength that covers the stronghold and provides power though I’m powerless. I look at the sky and pray.


I follow you, Lord.


I’m not powerful.


I’m not strong.


My flesh and power must wrestle against God’s direction and advise me what I do. God’s production guides me today.


Lamentations 3:22-23

(Because of) the Lord’s faithful love we do not perish, for His mercies, never end. They are new every morning great is Your faithfulness!


Every day shows me a walk and offers me with faithfulness and guidance.


Jesus did not promise to chance the circumstances around us. He promised great peace and pure joy to those who would learn to believe that God actually controls all things.

Corrie ten Boom


Thank you, Lord. Your love is non-ending. Your mercy never ends. I follow your direction. Show me what I must decide according to prayer.

Janet K. Brown About Janet K. Brown

Janet K. Brown scored a dream come true when God gave her writing as her ministry. Her women’s fiction, Worth Her Weight, released this year as a compliment to her devotion book, Divine Dining: 365 Devotions to Guide You to Healthier Weight and Abundant Wellness. She lives with her husband in Wichita Falls, TX and loves to visit family and share with writers and readers.


  1. I’m reaching out with a hug for you, Janet. Without the quiet time, I am just like that, too. My nerves get the best of me. I feel unsure of what I’m supposed to be doing. But then the quiet time fills my soul again and I feel that peace. But I understand the overwhelmed feelings, too. I feel them often, and wonder… should I be writing? Should I give up art? It’s odd how we can feel so un-tethered, like being tossed around in an open sea, sometimes.

    I’m praying for you, Janet. I hope these feelings of overwhelmingness (is that a word? if not, I just made it up) subside. May God grant you peace and assurance.

  2. Janet K Brown says:

    Thank you, Cherie. I need God’s touch & direction. I so appreciate your prayers.

  3. Janet, my friend, I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling and that your husband is dealing with health issues. I have walked that road. My thoughts and prayers are with you, and I pray for God’ s strength and guidance.

  4. You are such a precious share, Patti. God does give the strength that I need. I think you for you touch. I love you, too.

  5. Praying that He does give you a definite sense of direction.

  6. I love you, Janet. I am praying for you and sending hugs and blessings. This sounds a lot like what I’ve been going through this year. God wanting me to SLOW DOWN. It’s hard to know what to quit doing. Those quiet still times are invaluable and precious!

Speak Your Mind