When God’s Order Looks Like DISorder

When God’s Order Looks Like DISorder

Seconds ago, I was tearing down one of two Christmas trees we had in our home this Christmas season when a very clear analogy stopped me. I knew I had to STOP. I had to write about it. So, here is my humble attempt to communicate what I believe God was showing me, just moments ago.

I don’t think I’ve EVER been the one to string the lights ON our family Christmas trees. Nope. In 21 years of marriage, it’s always been my husband. He delights in it. He loves to tally up how many light strands he’s used so that when he steps back and sees the glory of the bedazzled tree, he can say with confidence, “There’s 1000 lights on that tree!”

How I appreciate his vision for making our tree as sparkly and beautiful as possible! I’m a little less appreciative when later, I am the one taking down the lights. There’s no seeming sense to it! The lights are not merely wrapped around the tree, one row at a time. No. They are rippled up and down, crisscrossed over other strands, and generally, HARD to take off. I wrack my brain trying to figure out what his mad method was. Eventually, I successfully de-light the tree, but I find myself thinking, “There must be a better, more organized way!”

ENTER: God talking to me. I sensed His Spirit speaking this,“Isn’t this often how you look at life, Kristin? You want order. You want same-ness. You want predictability. But my ways are higher. My thoughts are higher. Your life would not be the beautiful dazzling masterpiece I am making of it without all the up-and-down, criss-crossed, seemingly nonsensical things I’ve taken you through. What seems like DISorder to you, IS my order. Trust in me.”

I stop. I am aware that a holy moment is happening. I ponder what I believe God is speaking to my heart, through His Spirit.

You see, friends, I long for order and stability in life. To know where the next step is. To know I’m going to be OK. To know my children will follow God. To know my husband and I will live to a ripe old age, surrounded by a dozen healthy grandchildren and daughters who’ve married wonderful Christian men. But I have lived long enough to know that this may not be God’s plan. I’ve lived through enough difficulty to know that the Beautiful often comes through the Hard. Oh the glory of it, but oh, the pain of it, too.

God is at work in each of us, if we belong to Him. He is “stringing the lights” on us, so to speak. He may use “up and down, back and forth, criss-crossed” strands of light (life experiences) that when seen all together, will be a glorious sight. Do I trust Him to make mine a beautiful life, even when it seems so out of order? I hope so. I pray so. I want to, so…Lord, may it be so.

“Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.” James 1:17

Kristin Bunting About Kristin Bunting

Kristin wishes you could pull up a chair, enjoy a cup of coffee, and talk with her about how amazing Jesus is. For 33 years she has walked with her Savior, and each year is a new adventure in learning how He is always "Enough" for her, no matter what the circumstance. Kristin is wife to one loving small-church pastor, and never ceases to be amazed at the 3 daughters God has given them to raise. Her one-day dream is to write a book for women, chronicling her walk with Jesus and encouraging them to never quit pursuing the God who loves them.


  1. Kristin-I’m so glad you stopped to write. What a wonderful reminder of God’s plan for our lives. I’m like you, I want to know the next step and walk a straight line. But let me tell you, God’s taught me some new dance steps that move me all over the place! Thanks for sharing.

  2. I love everything about this post, Kristin, especially: “What seems like DISorder to you, IS my order. Trust in me.”

    That hits home for me so much this morning. Trust is my word for the year because I want to be better at it when it comes to my relationship with God, and your post really speaks to me. How many times do I try to reconcile with people he is trying to keep away from me? How many times do I try to “untangle” things myself when he has a plan and I’m only mucking it up? One day I’m sure I’ll shake my head when I find out. In the meantime, I need to just appreciate this:

    “the Beautiful often comes through the Hard.”

    So well said, Kristin! thank you

  3. Laurie Driesen says:

    Kristin, Love the post – it’s so wonderful how you were open to what God had to say about the “disorder”. Thanks for sharing! I’m going to remember this one….especially when I’m trying to figure out messy things.

  4. Kristin Bunting says:

    Thank you, ladies! I have so much in my heart as I re-read my post and all your comments. God is so faithful to keep up His counsel and conversation with me at every turn. And that is one thing I LOVE about my dis-order!

  5. I love the message in this post, Kristin. Made me stop and think, too. Thank you

  6. So loved this message you shared with us from the Lord, Kristin! What a wonderful reminder this is for us all to trust. God is so good!

  7. So needed the reminder that the Beautiful often comes through the Hard! Have to face something hard this week and I pray God will bring beauty out of it. Thank you, Kristin.

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